RainBowJizz126

Happy Valentine's Day everyone, I hope you are all doing well. You may have noticed a few of my recent pictures being of a "Master and Lady Grey". These are drawings of me and the most wonderful man I could ever ask for. He has opened my eyes to a life I always wanted but never thought possible and has given me hope for our future. Today, and everyday, when love is in the air I think about how bright he has made my life and perspective on many things. 
 Now I know there are some that may not feel it and are looking at the sales on chocolates but I promise if your mind is still open to it, there is hope for love. When I wrote my last journal I didn't think that I'd ever say anything and that id be miserable holding on to something that couldn't be. I didn't think someone could care about me as much as I wanted...but it did. I didn't say anything until I came to a realization that the person I cared about could potentially be hurt in love once more and I wouldn't forgive myself if he was. Through all odds and ends, letting your emotions out is ok. If they care they'll let you know in one way or another. If they don't then they can bugger off and you can carry on knowing you did the right thing.

much love to you all, may your day be bright.

i hate it when I have a crush on someone, especially close friends. I've had it happen before but never said anything and now here I am, fighting the urge to flirt with them....god I hate being a teenager! Any advice?

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ok well normally I'm a very optimistic kid, I used to be really "scene" as they call it, back when I was ten. As of right now, fifteen, I find myself backtracking and I'm a bit stressed, not because of a job or payments, but because I can't seem to satisfy myself or anybody els lately. I just have nothing right now and I'm getting nowhere, I'm doubting myself again and I'm getting even more pissed. I'm not allowed to have a job and when I go to clean my aunts, it automatically means I've spent way too much time there and can't go see my friend the next day that, mind you, only comes down once in a while due to her own stressful life. People tell me I'm smart, then why the hell am I sucking at English! The freaking language I speak! I'd like some requests, it would be very pleasing, but I don't ask it much for I don't think my art is taking flight very well. I'd like to be introduced to reality a bit more frequently so I could have a better grip and not get my inspiration from cartoons all my life. I love what I do, I love singing with my choir, I love voicing things, I just don't want it to end so harshly. Thanks for reading I guess, time to go wash the dishes, the only thing I'm good at.